Omg dude. You know what my goal for tomorr....later today is? Make a new layout for this. xDD

umggggg<3<3 Aneki. comes. back. in. TWO WEEKS AND SIX DAYS. 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. *dies* Only other thing that would make me happy is Colonello topping Reborn. :'D. ...and drawing skills and actually updating. :'DD *goes off to do so*

Mmn. Well, as you guys know, Leafy's left GW and doesn't have time on the computer anymore. xD; I dunno, I feel like crap right now; I'd rant to AK, Jenny, and Suki, but it just doesn't seem right. I've been so friggin' emoemo all week, and I don't wanna push it. I don't like feeling this way, it pisses me off that I can't grow up. The point is, I haven't talked to Leafy in a while, and I miss that girl. She told me that when I  see her drawings, I just say one comment and act like it's nothing, and even if she's just mad at me now, I feel so friggin' awful. She's my best online friend and she really is, but it just don't feel like we're close anymore. Sometimes talking to her, she'll annoy me a bit, and every time, it feels like I piss her off more and more. I don't think that I can really talk to her anymore without saying the wrong thing. She told me to go talk to Ari, and well... Arisadonna is not Leaf ? or Leafette. She doesn't even have an L, E, or F in her name. :/ Arisa is Arisa and Leafy is Leaf. I don't think I can really get with the program and cut her out of all of it. It's hard enough just staring at the screen right now and not feeling guilty. Ever since she's gotten into that program and Stace never gets on, I don't even feel like me anymore. Emo all the time and just can't cheer myself up. -^- Screw this, I hate being sad; no wonder people can't imagine me like this.

Sagel made me a gift today; two of them. If or if not she's reading this, I hope she at least knows that I appareciate them. :]

http://i37.tinypic.com/nejkmg.png < -- Birthday gift for me, apparently. She can get so detailed at this stuff (points to inking) that it makes me so damn jealous, man. xD screw her. *hugs pencil*

http://i38.tinypic.com/2l8ucgo.png < -- That's spose to be Elliot. xD She did a way better job at the eyes than I did ( http://i36.tinypic.com/2vuj0d2.png ). Maybe it's not what Elliot looks like to me, but I really do like the design. I'm using it as a design for Adam, but hell, not even she knows who it is, so oh well. xD Well, three more hours until this birthday's over. Till I go emo again, have fun, man.

<3

Secret Rendezvous

( Chapter 2 )

Sooo. Been a while, right? :] Meh, ever since yesterday, I guess I've been kinda out of it. I don't know, but I guess I haven't felt as if my writing's good enough anymore. I've always told myself that there's always room for improvement, but... what improvement? I'm not getting better, and sometimes I feel like I'm getting worse. Maybe it's just me; maybe it's true. It's just enough to make me really think more and more; "Do I want to keep writing?" Akiko's comment yesterday on GW really hurt me, I guess. She said, "I don't normally read your stuff considering how long it is." It was just weird, because I write that long since I want my readers to feel like they don't have to wait forever for me to read something they can really take in. What if a lot of people miss my stories because of an answer like that? I dunno... that comment's still in my head, and it makes me so depressed because... well, I don't like losing readers. :/ I can get jealous, and I can get competitive, but it all comes down to how I feel about my readers, right? Losing them like this and not having them in the first place... it makes me feel so pissed. They're missing out on a good story because... I dunno. Leafy told me yesterday that most people prefer sunny happy cliche stories over original characters and dark stories, no matter the plot. Well, I don't wanna change my style. I can write comedy, I can write fantasy, but... I can't change my style. I dunno, I'm just being a baby about it. Peace out<3

WHOO. New Layout for no school. 8D I have to say, I'm glad how it turned out, even if it does look a little plain. x33 <3 

Just a coupel more days<3 I'm happy, honestly, but a lot of my friends I'll miss. Eighth grade went by pretty damn fast. ._.; specially um, me and my flute getting rejected. ...over. and over. and over. Oh screw it, I've got more different rants. xD; Like this girl at school who I hate her guts. ;3 <3 We ar eno longer friends, thankfully, but she's a bitch. For a month now we have been trying to create a problem to make her not our friend anymore, because we are goodhearted. ...I think. ._o; Hmm yup, heart's beating and it isn't swollen, so I'd say we're good in the heart department. :'3 Wish me luck, kay? I have been trying to get my overprotective parents off my back~ 

School is almost over and I sadly enough do not have enough to do. ;D My to-do list will be filled for the rest of the month, hell yeah. Don't see why, since I'm mediocre (I honestly didn't know over half the terms of what's in my writing until my teacher or stacy-dearest told me, so that's a definite thumbs up on a creative writing class. xD;)

Well... I didn't make Pride. I didn't make All District. I didn't even make Advanced Advanced Band. ._.; Failure, yup, but hey, s'not like I can complain too much. We'll be Frenchmen next year~ Till then, my To-Do list so I don't forget:

1. Stacy's Yoseki smut.
2. Aneki's Birthday Present.
3. Nuki's Birthday Present.
4. RebornxColo smut.
5. Digimon - Courage At Its Weakest
6. Digimon - The Descending
7. Naruto - Arranged Destiny
8. Naruto - Girl of His Dreams

<3 Sad part is, I don't think I'll get past Nuki's birthday present. xD; That damn thing sucks all my creativity out  and is just like... out there.

F-Locked coz I don't want to find this idea stolen by anyone. D<

HaHA! >D I am so sleepy at the moment that it is so not even funny. I spent half the night talking to Aneki and the other half trying to sleep through this weird heatwave. I've got my algebra test today and it's obvious I'm totally screwed, but who caaaarrress. I will FIGHT! ...Or crash, but either way I'm gonna have tot ake the test. Wish me luck~ 

I um.. just think that I might not be cut out for this place. Visiting new places are normally too scary for me, honestly. I'm either too stuck up or I try too hard and end up being such a noob about everything. Meh, maybe I just need to give LJ more of a try. I gave TTZ a try and I gave admining a try, right? I just... got... better... at... those... I think that the Reborn community um... just despises me for that picture i used before for my banner. ;_; Or my ego is speaking since my review rate went from six to one.. *siggghhh* I honestly feel so guilty about that. So if you're out there monitoring me, I'm so sorry. So very very very very VERY sorry. :/ I'm just a fan... a stupid, narrow-minded fan who hopes things will get better. Stories would be so much easier to post if there weren't so many people who were past mediocre on here. xD; I mean, I'm not horrible, but since I'm only an eighth grader that means I could be, right? Ah well. :] 

How to Avoid the Inevitble<3

Read Chapter 1 < to catch up on what you're missin' xD;

Remember:

Lambo's Thoughts.
I-Pin's Thoughts.

Yesss! Two days of working on this baby and I finally have it done. Well, um... time to actually introduce myself considering I never really come here till now. xD; I am Chudari, but Kudari on a lot of other sites (Kudari was taken already here, so... yeah.) and you know what? I'm feeling pretty good about this place. It's way better than FF.net and I don't know whether or not I'll switch, but we'll just have to wait and see, huh? Well, I'm a Naruto fan, an SC fan, and a new Reborn fan. xD; Nice to meet you<3 

Almsot done with the layout. Screwed it up a bit, but um... we can fix that. xD;